Choosing Sides

I'm feeling a little emotional right now, I'm not really sure why... Oh well, maybe it's because it's almost my period... Whatever it is, I feel like writing a blog today. I'm listening to a particular song and it reminded me of someone... my bestest bestfriend in the whole world, Arlyn. She's the only one who can truly understand me even if I don't say anything. 

Bespren, this song's for you... thank you for constantly reminding me of what I'm worth and what I'm capable of doing and scolding me if I am too much to take.. hehe... love you bespren.

On The Side Of Me

by Corrine May

I'm not the easiest person to love

I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved

Yet you choose to be

On the side of me

On the side of me

Yet you choose to be

On the side of me

On the side of me

 

I'm not too proud of some things

I've done in my life

The skeletons in my closet

Are too big for me to hide

Yet you choose to be

On the side of me

On the side of me

Blessed Charity

You're on the side of me

On the side of me

'Cause everyone needs a friend to hold

When it's cold outside

And there's no place to go

Everyone needs a friend to hold

All alone I cried

There was no place to go

I remember when nobody cared

But you

I'm not the easiest person to love

But you, you've opened your heart

To show me what I'm worth

'Cause you choose to be

On the side of me

On the side of me

What a mystery

You're on the side of me

On the side of me

'Cause everyone needs a friend to hold

When it's cold outside

And there's no place to go

Everyone needs a friend to hold

All alone I cried

There was no place to go

I remember when nobody cared

I remember when nobody cared

Nobody cared

But you...

Yeah you choose to be

On the side of me

On the side of me

Songs For Me...

It's really flattering when a person makes a song for you and I felt really special when this friend of mine made not just 1 but 2 songs for me.  Thanks!  ;)

Song 1: Untitled

I don't know much, you can tell me the truth
If this feeling's right then I want you to choose.
Oh I wish I could make this simple
I wish I could take out your troubles.
But I don't know much so please tell me the truth.

*You can cry, you can laugh, you can be who you want to be.
You can jump, you can fly or you can sing along with me.
Oh I wish I could tell you I love you..
So please, tell me...

You can't stay long but I'm being strong.
You've held me tight and I'll keep that for long.
I can say that I'm glad I've found you.
I can say that you're happy with me too.
But you can't stay long and I'm being strong.

*You can cry, you can laugh, you can be who you want to be.
You can jump, you can fly or you can sing along with me.
Oh I wish I could tell you I love you..
So please..love me... 

Song 2: Belle

Amazed by you
Amazing you
You've touched my heart unexpectedly

It dawned on me
How love should be
This time I'm happy it happened with you

Oh with you, life's changing
With you, love is turning
Every hope, every dream I have
I want it with you.

The songs we sing
The joy it brings
Each sound you play
Takes my breath away.

Oh with you life's changing
With you love is turning.
Every hope, every dream I have
I want it with you.

Oh with you life's changing
With you love is turning
You're my hope, You're my dream
But somehow you're not meant for me.

But I'm still....

Amazed by you
Amazing you
You've touched my heart unexpectedly...

...

I'm not even sure if I'm looking forward to my birthday...
But I'm excited 'coz my baby Buchi's turning 1 (we happen to have the same bday, by the way)

Time Flies But I'm Not Moving... I Think

@ our house in Marikina

I pity myself... I look like a boy and my tummy's big and worst of all, just look at my undies...

  

Well, I have to admit, my sister's cuter and more adorable than me.

  

 

When I was a kid, I don't smile, my sister does.

  If you can notice, the dress that I was wearing, is the same dress that my sister's wearing in the picture above. (Poor me!)

 

This is the only time I remembered wearing a heroine's costume. I love this pic but I remember that my sister and I were annoyed at this kid. We don't really know him but he kept following us. I think that's my first admirer; just look at him, he's sooo into me.. wahahaha...  

Chest out posture.

@ our house in Gorordo

I think we went to the beach during this time that's why we look so tanned. But this is really my natural color.

@ Ocean Park, Hongkong

@ Disneyland, Hongkong

@ Ateneo de Manila University during our youngest brother's graduation

@ Cebu Doctor's Hospital (Christmas 2009)

Last night, my sister and I were talking about our upcoming (unavoidable) birthdays. Her birthday's on March 28, mine's on March 14. I told her I can't believe I'm turning 29 already. She said, "Paano na lng ako, magte-30 na ko" (How bout me? I'm turning 30). I insisted that it's just 1 yr so it doesn't make any difference. She kept telling me that there's a BIG difference, I still have a year before I turn 30. She can't tell the people anymore that she's on her 20's or late 20's and among us (siblings), she'll be the first one who will have a line of 3 in age. I kept laughing while she's saying, 'Yuck! Yuck! Paano nangyari yon! (How did it happen?)

If there's any consolation, my sister, who's turning 30 doesn't look her age. She's proud that her officemates thought that our youngest brother, Carlo (who's 23), is the eldest in our family. And I always hear comments from other people (her friends, our neighbors, relatives) that they thought I was older than my sister... I always tell my sister, 'it's because I'm taller than you'. But she'll just shrugged it off. (I guess, reasoning isn't that effective.... Grrr...)

The Countdown Begins....

March

This is my most favorite month by default. Why? Because I was born on this month. I always get excited when it's almost my birthday even if it means adding another year to my age. It's one of those days that I feel really special and it seems that I get all the attention. Don't get me wrong, I don't like being the center of attention but sometimes it doesn't hurt to be noticed and it's great to feel special even for just a day and people can't say bad things to you coz it's your day... :P

I'll be turning 29. Yes, I'm that old but I don't feel old. In fact, I look younger than my age. You might be raising your eyebrows with my last statement but you have to admit that it's true. There are girls younger than me who look waaaaayyyyy older... Hahaha....

My only wish is for my wishes to come true. I gotta breakaway....

Pointless

No point explaining,
When nobody understands

No point repeating what you've said,
When nobody listens

No point bragging what you've done,
When there's no one to witness it

No point staying and waiting,
When no one's coming back.

Zip

I'm keeping my mouth shut... it's better this way.

I'll hide what I really feel inside... that way, I won't be misunderstood.

I'll keep my thoughts to myself... that way, I won't be misinterpreted.

I'll go back to my old self... that way, nobody would say I've changed.

I'm keeping my mouth shut... it's better this way.


Zip.